I've often been in abusive relationships and scenarios I didn't realize were such at the time, only discovering just how bad those people and situations were after getting away--that's my experience with and how I feel about the trans community and trans-affirmative spaces. My feelings are strongly tied with my own experiences with these people, and since they were exploitative and inappropriate with me, I'm wary of pro-trans organizations, groups and people. Looking back, 'trans' for them was almost just a pretext to perv on people. For the longest time, I thought I was just being judgmental and cruel for being scared of transwomen, but I've come to see I'm not the only one with these kinds of experiences and that it's not just in my head.

I feel really used and taken advantage of by many of the adults in my life and by people claiming to care and that they can be trusted, so I've really grown to distrust any of the pro-trans banter or people. I feel bad still for unassuming children and adults caught up in everything, I worry about them being exploited, having their lives permanently altered, and being used by sick people for their own pleasure.