For me it's just part of my overall misanthropic and pessimistic view of the world. Life is easier if you can delude yourself about things, but some people just aren't capable of it. I used to angst about it a lot more when I was younger ("impotent rage" is a good description) , now at 30 I've reached a point where I'm pretty apathetic about things. Humans are shit, life is full of suffering and injustice, then we die and there is no afterlife. I like to read about history and it reminds me that people had it a lot worse back in the day, really if you are living in industrial country today you have it better than most of humanity and most of your ancestors. I'm a natural introvert and almost a hermit, although I'm trying to be more social but it's hard because I don't feel like I can connect with people. I'm not interested in romance at the moment at all, but I could casually date/have sex with a man if I felt like I REALLY wanted it and being celibate was making me miserable, because I've never had a problem avoiding worst types of men and saying no or just walking away, so I doubt I would end up feeling used. But I've gotten fat since Covid started and I lost my job, so I'll probably stay celibate the rest of my life unless I manage to slim down again lol. I've definitely developed pretty thick skin, but mostly because I don't care about most people's opinions anymore, they make no difference to me.

Being aware of the bad things in the world never gets easy, but it's a gift and a curse. Accepting things you can't change, working on the things you can control. I like animals and I'm a vegetarian trying to become a vegan and trying to get more into animal activism/conservation, it feels nice to have a cause that isn't so stained with human shittiness (animals will thrive if they are left alone, humans cause their own problems). But it's also extremely depressing because you realize that 99% of humans don't have any empathy for any other species and it's a hopeless work too. Ultimately feeling bad about things doesn't make any difference, it's kinda selfish, only action matters.