You can't even understand my literal words, much less communicate clearly, on this site with all the time in the world. Even poorly executed, writing is a craft - a less-authentic filter - with people hiding behind keyboards.

In person through pacing, body language, intensity, volume, eye contact, etc etc etc, will give off far more information than any text message could ever attempt to do. You may wear clothes, but you and your motivations will be infinitely more naked to the observant, unable to hide your impulse reactions (which are already more than obvious on SaidIt).

This goes both ways. The intimacy, contact, companionship, etc that you seek, might be found in a counsellor.