I was kidnapped 10 months ago, I have now been free for two months. I was tortured and raped during this period. I have no intentions to kill myself but i know that if I get kidnapped again I will have a shitty death. For this reason I carry a .22 revolver and will do anything to escape if anybody tries to get me kidnapped again.

But im also aware that if I cannot escape I will have to kill myself.

I will save the last three bullets for myself (8 rounds on the revolver) two for the chest, not the heart but near the lungs and one for the head.

If I have the time I would also take a drug overdose, and here comes the question I would like to ask you.

For the OD I would take 2,000 miligrams of pregabalin, 5 anticoagulant pills (warfarina), and 5 levocines.

Im sure that should do the trick, and In case it dosent the anticoagulants should help me bleed out faster.

No family, no parthner, 3 or 4 friends, and this situation is in south america. Im beeing looked for my a cartel so police and goverment wont help at all. (In my country its widely known they cooperate with drug cartels.

Im crushing the pills in order to inhale a portion of them and take the rest (helping it pass with medical alcohol) in case that I would have to do this, In case there is no scape from being kidnapped again.

I know its over kill, but Im not willing to gom through everything that already happened again, I rather just die free if its required.

Is this it? Or is there anything else I could take as a precaution to asure my death in this scenario?